"I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breath in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breath in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while."
- Tom Hanks, Sleepless in Seattle

This quote has been running through my head ever since we lost our boys. It perfectly describes how I feel more often than not. I long for the time when every day won't have to be SO. HARD.